Lying in the trunk of this car, thinking of all the things I’ve done
The moments that lead to this and the decisions they ushered from
The forces in my life have been my strength and my destruction
The forces that drive me through need no real introduction
She was seventeen, young and lean
Looking like a beauty queen
Smart and witty, strong and gritty
Adventurous with just the right amount of needy
The first time I saw her, it was like angels sung to me
And all I could see and hear was made up of symphony
She would mean the world to me
And that’s all she has grown to be
And I knew then what I know now
I would do anything to bring her every desire to fruition some how
And I tried but there’s just so much a bum like me can do
And no matter what I did, it felt like there was no pleasing you
And then it hit me, one big score, one simple gig to even the plane
But all of my associates told me I was insane
But then I found a crew willing to do what a man needs to do
To provide for his family, the way a man ought to
We hit the casino at a quarter to five
It didn’t go down as expected but we didn’t take any lives
But there was blood split and the wrong people got hurt
Back then they just seemed like causalities as long as we didn’t get caught
Or so we thought but that quickly changed as they days went past
And we realised we had to get out of town fast
No plan is perfect and word went around
Our names were mentioned and so people had to go to the ground
Bobby got hit; Mike was wacked not too long after, Joey didn’t get as far
And me, me, I’m in the trunk of this car
But it’s all gone as I expected, according to the plan in my head
They’ll never find all the money, she’d find what’s left and forge ahead
Through torture and pain, I’d tell all they need to know
They’d get most of the money and the guys that pulled the show
She’ll disappear somewhere with the bag in the sofa
Start a new life there, with the arrangements I made, she’d never have to suffer
I had it all planned out with the thoughts in my head
But then it’s funny the things you think of when you dead
They say you get a clear glimpse of things
And here I did finally putting together all of the strings
It was never the money nor the material things she wanted
Not the car, gadgets or jewellery that to her was flaunted
It was me home, at hours when she was awake
Doing stuff with me in activities that couples partake
It was just my time and love that she enjoyed the best
The things I denied her while putting material things first
She returned the money; she wanted none of that blood on her hands
If I had only been a man and gotten with that 9 to 5 plan
Now she’s alone crying in shadows feeling betrayed
I can’t even hold her hand and apologise, I strayed
My best intentions to give everything she could dream
If only I had asked her, I woulda learnt I was that dream
